9.13.02

this i've noticed about students at large...especially here.

there's always the pressing concept of time. dead harris said on thursday that time is the one resource most quickly wasted and overlooked, and that is true...but if you take a look in my schedule book, hours not penciled in with something specific (like PBH Open House, Volunteer at Franklin School...) seem to be gaping holes of failure staring me in the face.

during these gaping holes of (gasp, the horrors!) free time, my mind is thinking of creating artificial realms of social life to fool itself into thinking i actually have a life...which of course i do! how silly of you to think otherwise.

oddly enough, right now is that gaping hole of time upon time....i have nothing to do at this current moment but sit and contemplate going to breakfast, while my precious minutes (which could be funnelled toward getting into harvard med, or someting of that frivolous sort) are sifting away.

9.12.02

it's about twelve days into the beginning of school, and i'm suddenly struck by a sense of almost obscene enthusiasm...what a free situation to be in! at this moment, i feel like i can do anything, be anywhere, meet anyone i please. sometime today i'll probably try and get that digital camera, go talk to the biochem department so i can sign up for a faculty TA program, and visit UHS to see what the hell is wrong with my knee. the lamont library is just great (someone come visit it with me sometime, hehe) and probably a good haven for me and my poor, overworked soul.

an example. at breakfast today, i reailzed i'd missed the copley square excursion trip that i signed up for this morning. but upon visiting the FDO, i found that another fifteen trips were open due to cancellations on the parts of those who signed up!

tomorrow i'm going to the bargain hunters trip...should be great =) professionally finding cheap clothes! now that's a classic. hehe~

alvin (journalism alvin, not my brother alvin) wants me to post juicy gossip about my sex life...unfortunately, that's a little hard right now, since it doesn't exist (though i do have a condom in my desk right now XD UHS distributed it. i don't need it, so offers start at 5...)

now about that freshman fifteen...

9.11.02

september 11th...

today the sun will rise. the rivers will flow with renewed vigor, though the hours grow weary and pale. the autumn leaves will fall, peacefully and unobtrusively, casually tending to their own business. and the wind will waft, through houses decored tastefully and untouched by the tinge of shadow, into rooms of airy comfort and carefree style. and the children will play, someday to grow into adults, healthy and free, without a care in the world, without the burden of rememberance...

in the distance, a far song. it is the voices of the angels, far away in the dawn. it echoes, and with each coming morning, draws us toward the horizon with that sense of inevitability called mortality. we will move, like machines, toward this horizon that ever unfolds.

one day we shall sleep.

until that day, however, we are not free; not by shackles cuffed by our masters but self-imposed. we will trudge through the day with those shackles chaffing against our thin wrists and feel only infinite repentance that tomorrow we will again be those children, living in a carefree world and guiltily enjoying our freedom. but for today, there is a hiatus in the busy lives of every one of us.

for today, if only today...

we, for one, will not forget.

9.10.02

woke up today and realized that i've been here for 10 days already! (well, minus FUP, which really doesn't count)...what a strange feeling...there hasn't really been much going on, i guess. it feels like there is a lot i still need to do. among my list of to-do's:

1. open a bank account in cambridge trust. blah...

2. figure out this sunscreen foundation stuff that everyone else seems to have...

3. get a cell phone. sprint or att?

4. figure out what i should be eating daily in order to prevent that damn freshman fifteen...(already starting on it...agh)

5. do my freshman seminar applications...

6. figure out what extracurrics i actually want to do

7. talk to june about being a wellness rep

8. make a final list of classes i actually want to take

 9. get a friggin planner. ahhh!